A T R A Z E

Two posts in a day? It's getting more exciting. The thoughts coming out of my head, running down like fallen drops.

I've been thinking since idk about what will I become, in the next ten years. I basically have a lot of wishes, what I wanna be. I want to be an artist, architect, lawyer, doctor, businesswoman, even the other jobs that may not be proper for daily work. I've never thought I would be in Biology major. It keeps me thinking about the prospects, what will I do after I'm done with all of these college shits. I was thinking about moving to another major, but I concealed it.
Why?
Keep reading.

I was born with creativity (whether I'm too confident or that's amazingly the only reason I survived, but thank God). I always think about another alternative options when I'm stuck on the existing options. When I got the opportunity to be in biology major, I turned my brain upside down, thinking about the possibilities for my future as Bachelor of Science.

I love nature. I really do. When I was 10 years old, I dreamed of writing about nature for my thesis. At first, it's --*
For my-holy-DIY-minded-brain sake, my mind has saved bunch of ideas for making the world a better place by producing some creative solutions throughout the environmental issues occurred in that time (I won't mention them bcs they are really brilliant (won't let anybody steal the ideas) and I'll wait for myself to make it happen but when?!). But what I can say is they are totally out of the box! And yes, back to the topic - I was a bit terrified at the first time I entered the morbid lab with jars of mice's fetuses on every corner. A new friend of mine said, glaring at me, "kalo nggak suka ngapain masuk biologi?" as a first timer, it made me down. But soon I understood what Biology is aside from the morbid jars. They talked about what they called traveling life's secret, saving the nature, and oceans. Parts of Biology I adore. I do become more excited to learn about all of em. Moreover, I get bold conservation principle as I started majoring Biology, which means I am one step ahead to do my dream nature-themed dissertation.

Why do people want to be an architect if their number one reason isn't drawing enthusiasm? You, failed artists, don't have to move out from bio because their practicum assignments on the 2nd year mostly needed a good-skilled hand in drawing! Instead drawing black and white sketches in everyday class of architecture, I can draw detailed animal parts o' body in many different colors, 'cause that's what my life is, creativity with color assortments! I should stay, I know.

To draw like a toddler is not the only thing that keeps me stay in this circumstance. Eventho I am interested to learn more about four dimension in physics, I won't be able to reach NASA as I can't be good at MATH. LOL. Biology is the best choice of science. No explanation.

Since I fond of traveling (even I've never done the real one), a stack of outdoor assignments won't bother me! And it does really work well bcs on the 2nd year, we've been planning to go to Ujung Kulon to do research simulation! Yes, we're not following the find-the-best-spot-to-get-the-best-photo-for-instagram trend, it's gonna be a scientific activities with algae and stuffs and sure we'll get plenty of life knowledge!

At last, engineering and accountants job would fit me physically but won't fit in my heart, what fit in my heart is the effort to make the world greener. Since I was a kid, I'm eager to save the environment with creative ideas and that's what I'm gonna do with my life. That's my purpose in life. Some people said I don't have to be in Biology to be that so called environment activist, but why not? What if I love to learn science and I want to discover the world as a scientist? Perhaps I won't easily earn big number of money from this path but biology is surely a wide scope of knowledge and I'll find the way, maybe I'll make a business in terms of Biology? Or Idc if it's related to Biology or not but at least I'm doing what I love to do in my whole college life, and I'll find the way. What's the function of the creative brain of mine if it's not for looking at opportunities out of the box?

The point is, my dear friends and sisters and brothers, little or big... the world is unlimited, go explore what you want to explore! The time is too limited to spend on pleasing other people who's not affected by your presence.
"I'm 17 and achieve nothing" don't think about you in 17, think about you in 18! What are you gonna do in 18, go write your dreams in the sky! (Well said, Sutter from Spectacular Now!)
It's about your own happiness. Because in the end, (yes, my dear friend) it's only you and God.
When people choose to do travel merely to entertain them aside from their routines, I'd choose to do travel as my routines and doing business aside, as the money generator :p

*--this writing supposed to be published along with the previous one, but it seemed like my phone runs out of battery so I didn't finish it that day therefore when I continue to write today, I forget what I'm going to say earlier -_-

Acknowledgement: I supposed to publish this prior to the final registration of SIMAK UI 2015, as this refers to those who are stuck in the middle of nowhere, seeking for answers and advises, thinking if they should take the opportunity in a major that might not suit their heart, as what exactly happened to me last year.

Yay.